Saturday, June 15, 2013

At some point

At some point you have to let go and move on. It's hard not to let your past define you, yet as its been pointed out to me a lot lately. I hold on tightly to my past. It has very much defined me.
I'm a little broken and it breaks my heart a little. I used to be fearless, I had a very much I don't fucking care. I don't now. I analyze everything. I worry about everything.
Granted being a Mom brings an element to that mind think as well but the way my ex husband made me feel, did me no favors.
Even though frankly as a person in my 40's I bring it, I struggle with believing that. It makes me sad, I know it upsets people around me.
How at 41 can I have the emotional mindset of a teenager.
Ugh

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